Requiem

Admittedly, my normal day-to-day activities keep me busy and happy.

And then suddenly the quietness hits me, and that heavy feeling comes. Sobs are contained. I am not too self-important to think that my feelings may matter, but if I do feel that sadness, that loss, then that means my mother feels it 10x more than I do. And of course, Mae's mother.

Vague. Magulo na ba?

Let me start again.

One fine mid-morning, my father calls. What he says stupefies me. For a moment, I wonder if it was April Fool's day. But no, it was already the 16th of April, 15 days away from April 1. My 10-year old inaanak died. My cousin's daughter. 10 years old. Dead because of leukemia.

We didn't know she had leukemia, thus it came as a real shock to us. When she stood as a flowergirl in my wedding, she was already sick. I didn't know that. I regret I didn't reach out more. I am sorry for all the gifts I didn't give and all the moments that maybe could have been more special had I given it more effort. I am sorry. But I am happy that she was loved, up to the very end and even beyond that. I am happy she had a happy childhood, as normal as it could possibly be. I am happy her mother is a strong woman, and her strength and fortitude in the midst of everything is an inspiration.

Family will always be family. And love will always transcend everything. Even death.

To paraphrase Dylan Thomas: "Though loved ones be lost, love shall not; And death shall have no dominion"

My Wishlist

I have a lot of wishes (World Peace? A better Philippines?), but Material-Girl wise (of course, aside from loads of cash, hehe), these are it (at least for now):

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My Wishlist

I have a lot of wishes (one of them is to be able to update this blog with more travel info), but Material-Girl wise (of course, aside from loads of cash, hehe), this is it:

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