Anyway, I think I'm getting a little bit crazy.
There are still a million things that I want to do. I could enumerate them, but it would just look like some to-do list. And they don't really concern married life, so there. Anyway, I don't have some witty post today. I just have ... mixed emotions. 27 days more to go till the biggest party I'll ever throw. Hmm, maybe it's weird to describe it as a party. I could of course describe it as the start of the end of my life, but to do that would make me a very likely candidate for runaway bridehood. And it's not really accurate either. My personal philosophy in life is, when in doubt, don't. Well, maybe that's not a really accurate description of my philosophy, but suffice it to say that I have forced myself to look at my true feelings, and I have discovered that at this time, no I am not really in doubt, but just more sad for all the things that will change and that won't ever be the same. But I'm much better today than I was last week, thank you very much.
It's gonna be the start of a lot of personal changes. To change is to let go...of a lot of things and situations that have more or less defined who I am. I am not afraid of change, but this has the sense of permanency that both scares (did I make the right decision? walang divorce sa pilipinas!) and secures (aha, di ka na makakatakas! wala ka nang choice kung hindi ipagluto ako!). In any case, I think that those who have made the decision to share their lives with someone else forever are truly brave and courageous souls. A toast then, to all the courageous people who have taken the plunge.
Amen.All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France
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